This semester is just flying by! I realized this morning that I have a mere 7 weeks until I graduate and have to actually do something with my life...that is scary. I thought I had it all figured out. Lots of jobs in Washington, so I'll move to Washington. Reality has this sneaky way of changing on you when you least expect it. All the paperwork is turned in, but I can't sub for the rest of this year...no that would be silly. An education graduate subbing? Ridiculous! The kicker is that only one district will take a 1 year license even if I have my initial teaching license being processed. So if I'm lucky, I'll get a couple of sub jobs, but nothing really viable and then I'll be trying to move with absolutely no money. It gets better: Washington has instituted a hiring freeze. The chance of me getting a job as a first year teacher is almost none existent in that state as well as this one. So, my best option seems to be getting a sub license, free lancing and building a studio. And crossing my fingers hoping to make enough money to live. Somedays I just want to be a kid again.
On the musical side of life, I have discovered just how many more hours are required of you to teach music at the secondary level. Especially as someone just starting out, expecting to have time to teach a studio, even a small studio, or play in an orchestra would be stretching myself too thin. That is a scary thought. What gets me through the days and weeks are the chances I have to teach my students privately and to practice myself. I don't think a secondary instrumental music teaching position is for me right now.
If you thought college midterms were bad, I challenge you to be involved in a high school musical production. They start rehearsing 2 or 3 months in advance and some of the big programs run for 2 weeks. I was only marginally involved and I spent over 30 hours in 2 weeks on it. That is a lot of time that I was unable to practice or sleep. Student teaching has been an eye opening experience on so many levels. I know what I love to do and what I like to do. I know what is really important to me because I do my best to find time to do it, and I miss it when I can't. I have learned that the expectations of teachers can sometimes be that we are super-human in our abilities to accomplish things very quickly, and that most people don't realize that our job doesn't get to stay at school when we go home unless we never leave. But, I have found that I really do love to teach in almost any capacity. I just think that all teachers should have their own personal secretaries to take care of everything else!