So. I'm trying something new. Because what I've been doing isn't getting me where I want to go. I have SO MUCH I want to do/be/say/see/experience/share that I don't know where to start... (I feel like right now a pencil is a good metaphor for where I'm at: great for taking in any/all ideas, spewing them out, letting them sit and then transforming them into something else.)
I feel like this could be my quarter life crisis (except isn't that supposed to happen at age 25?? so maybe I'm behind the curve on that coming at age 30, or maybe I'll live for 120 years...who knows??) but I would rather call this a transition than a crisis. Although my bank account would probably not agree with me. So this is my journey. Unedited. It's going to be messy. It's going to be hard, and I hope it will be the best decision I've ever made! But it's also scary and I'm anxious. I'll be completely honest, I'm not sure it will work. But I'm trying anyway because I believe it is possible and I really want it.
You are invited to join me on this journey for the ups, downs and sideways. I can always use the company! This dream I have is not possible in a vacuum.
Background: I love what I do right now. LOVE. IT. but, I don't make enough money for it to be feasible for a permanent career. I am a studio violin and viola teacher. Over the past 3 years, I have gone from 0 to 34 students. It is an amazing achievement that happened with the help of so many people. And I am beyond grateful.
Currently: My life is organized around practicing, teaching, adulting and trying to get it figured out with a healthy dose of crafts, books and generally nerding out. You know, to Harry Potter. (I'm pretty ridiculously awesome.)
Future Ideas: Last night I played a concert (I know that is technically the past, but bear with me). It wasn't my best playing or the best group I've ever worked with, but I loved every second. Almost everything that could go wrong did. But we still put on an impressive show for people who don't usually hear a symphony perform. I am still riding the mental high. So, I want to find a way to perform more. Like all the time. I have absolutely no idea what that will look like, but I am brimming over with ideas; so right now, at this exact moment (listening to my favorite Taylor Swift CD, yes an actual CD in an actual CD player while I write by hand in a notebook to be typed up later) I am excited and can't wait to jump in with both feet.
First things first. I am starting off this new chapter by sharing my story with everyone in the hopes of finding a community of others who have similar hopes, dreams and passions.
The fireworks in the distance remind me that celebration of who we are and where we come from is important. And that wanting a new future along a different/difficult path is not only possible, but true to my roots.
Thank you for following along, I'm glad to have you!